30 January 2006
went to sentosa today! beach soccer is rather fun! well, at least i can say i learnt how to play mahjong this CNY. just got a tad tipsy on some good dessert wine over dinner a couple hours ago. dunno how 3 or 4 glasses of 14.5% could get to me but oh well.
i dunno why i'm so picky with food. but really, i just can't eat food that is like, bad. i think i'm a very cheena, canton food kinda guy. pasta, especially disgusting stuff from pastamania, makes me sick. oh and my mood is real important too. i can't eat anything if i'm not in the mood.
math! here we go!
9:46 PM
28 January 2006
self-sufficiency is a term thrown around a lot when it comes to singapore studies. they even joke the merlion is such a weird combination of cat and fish simply to symbolise the country's self-sufficient nature.
but can pple possibly be self-sufficient? can we live our lives completely independent of others. what is this concept of independence? right now, i feel totally dependent. emotionally, financially etc. it leaves a feeling of helplessness almost. like a lack of control over one's life. but do we really want to live a life in complete self-sufficiency? i dunno.
what a random rant. the heat is gettting to me.
6:11 PM
25 January 2006
why do people cry themselves dry, whine themselves breathless. worry themselves sick. admittedly, i used to do all that. and frequently too. but i never understood why i did it and i still can't grasp the rationale. quite apparent to us all, is an option that probably unquestionably is greatly better than draining yourself emotionally. why think so much? why cry over spilt milk? why worry? face it. get on with life. but that's all easier said than done. we humans are after all, the most emotional cretins on the face of the earth.
relating this to myself, i'm this year a lot happier. carefree. but i wonder if that's because i've become numb to the stress or the pain. is that actually a good thing? i wonder. and i'm sure you will too. eventually.
7:18 PM
22 January 2006
josh, soon kai and i somehow got lost in bishan. but yeah it was rather entertaining talking to mdm. i think i'm taking things too easy this year. but well, at least i'm enjoying myself.
10:19 PM
17 January 2006
eyebags. hmm. it's a sign that i should have taken the dec hols to rest and recuperate. not coop myself up in a defence science lab.
GHK is gonna kick ass this year! Doesn't sound convincing? Just you wait and see! okay i'm gonna need to convince myself thoroughly first. But we're on the right track! Things are looking on the up now. Well, at least we're moving! Perhaps it's coz lessons have started. I need to play more ball. The endorphins really help me function, same way caffiene works for some of you out there.
Lexington. Bagehot. Charlemagne. My favorite section is still the obituary though.
9:03 PM
11 January 2006
everyone blogs about orientation, but i just didn't have the enthusiasm to do so.
had a wonderful conversation with hans today. truly, the moment we take that leap of faith, the instance we realise that everything is in fact in God's hands; it's a really humbling experience. the two of us discussed religion et al. but we concluded that Christianity is special and unique because of one defining quality - we have a God whose love for us is undying, whose mercies are new every morning and whose grace is simply amazing.
right now, i just try to dwell on these wonderful truths and try not to concern myself with all the emotional baggage that comes with worldly matters. i feel much more carefree that way.
8:28 PM
01 January 2006
korea was rather okay. family tensions were not very healthy for the whole thing but i guess i had fun skiing.
just spent the entire night karaoke-ing and attempting to play scrabble with kiddies who can't even spell lol. the year, in retrospect, was a rather good one. not fruitful, not altogether fulfilling, but still, can't say it was bad.
perhaps i've been too absorbed in the self. i dunno. i've been flipping through loads of old photos of late and i've realised how much i've changed through the years. i've been really fortunate in many areas, and maybe i shouldn't take so many things for granted.
new year resolution: to be a humbler person, shaping myself in the image of God.
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