26 March 2006
wah super sianzzzz.. sitting down and doing homework must be one of the most demanding tests of self-discipline. at least it is now. even if it was but second nature in the past. the weather is disgusting as usual. i can feel the humidity hugging and eveloping me. it very literally makes my skin crawl.
part of me thinks we're being overworked. buried under the pile of homework and gasping for air. but.... some tiny corner of my consciousness (perhaps it's my conscience or something. i thought it died a long time ago though) tells me that the real problem, yes the real problem, is that we're not being pushed hard enough. yes. you read that right. say whatever you like about the gifted programme but i swear in some morbid way, i absolutely enjoyed, and perhaps feasted, on the pressure and unending stream of challenges that gep presented to us. and amidst all the joy i gathered from overcoming each obstacle in my path, i derived even greater satisfaction from achieving a rather balanced lifestyle. the motivation was to finish my work as quickly as possible, and then i can go have fun. now, i think about it, perhaps its coz we don't have enough work to kick me to start work first and play later. with the reduced workload, perhaps i'm subconciously telling myself that i can play first and still finish the work later. and in turn inducing more stress on myself.
ah well. i know pple out there are gonna slam me for my little rant on the pros of gep. or my almost non-sensical 'plea' for more work. but yeah. just a little morning rambling.
10:16 AM
20 March 2006
A reminder today, how precious life is. We know not what awaits us in the near future. So treasure your life while you still can.
9:31 PM
16 March 2006
i watched V for Vendetta yesterday and i swear it's the best movie i've watched in years. i went to the gym with ben and toh and i also think i did rather well today for SIMUN. which all adds up to a feeling of contentment. an ethereal feeling of peace.
8:39 PM
06 March 2006
I just realised that i haven't started a new pair of contacts even though an entire week of the month has already come and gone.
I wish i could run as fast as my nose.
11:07 PM
05 March 2006
all of it is coming together. in a bad way.
the strain starts taking its toll after a while. no matter how you try to push it to the back of your mind. your physical self just doesn't hold.
the lack of activity on this piece of the galaxy that we term cyberspace is now so inactive you can just about guess how mundane and drab my life has become. mind numbing comatose. the way singaporeans like it.
6:01 PM
