26 March 2006
wah super sianzzzz.. sitting down and doing homework must be one of the most demanding tests of self-discipline. at least it is now. even if it was but second nature in the past. the weather is disgusting as usual. i can feel the humidity hugging and eveloping me. it very literally makes my skin crawl.
part of me thinks we're being overworked. buried under the pile of homework and gasping for air. but.... some tiny corner of my consciousness (perhaps it's my conscience or something. i thought it died a long time ago though) tells me that the real problem, yes the real problem, is that we're not being pushed hard enough. yes. you read that right. say whatever you like about the gifted programme but i swear in some morbid way, i absolutely enjoyed, and perhaps feasted, on the pressure and unending stream of challenges that gep presented to us. and amidst all the joy i gathered from overcoming each obstacle in my path, i derived even greater satisfaction from achieving a rather balanced lifestyle. the motivation was to finish my work as quickly as possible, and then i can go have fun. now, i think about it, perhaps its coz we don't have enough work to kick me to start work first and play later. with the reduced workload, perhaps i'm subconciously telling myself that i can play first and still finish the work later. and in turn inducing more stress on myself.
ah well. i know pple out there are gonna slam me for my little rant on the pros of gep. or my almost non-sensical 'plea' for more work. but yeah. just a little morning rambling.
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