Most people are other people.
Their thoughts are someone else's opinions,
their lives a mimicry,
their passions a quotation.
Oscar Wilde
someone feels betrayed by my previous post. someone who used to champion my views on being in love with love. i guess, i shall simply say, that it's nice to be naive and carefree once in a while.
9:13 PM
once upon a time, i despised being in love with love. i looked down on those who were, in my mind, naive enough to fall for it. today, i regret that i ever let myself think that way. As a Christian, the cornerstone of my faith is the Lord's love, his sacrifice. 1 John 4 says that perfect love casteth out all fear. previously, i looked upon being in love with love with disdain, but now i see that those conceptions stemmed from my fears, my failure to grasp and accept the perfect love that He showers upon us, and that restricted me from going out, and just loving my neighbours, my friends and my family. that changes from today. there's nothing wrong with being in love with love. i will go out and embrace love. i hope you will too.
9:33 PM
In your mind, i am but an idea, whether you know it or not.
10:34 AM
soonks pointed out something today. what's the difference between must-haves, and nice-to-haves? i'll keep with the status quo for now.
10:13 PM
i am at peace
11:25 PM
i can't believe i went up there and said all that rubbish. i mean, all it elicited was a comment on the clarity of my voice -.- but anyway, i conciously intended it that way i guess. i was, as one of them put it, high on crack. for not much of a reason. possibly fueled by my excessive cynicism. but anyway. i mean, like, whatever. gosh i can't believe i just said that.
8:33 PM
with no disrespect to anybody, most of the things that perpetrated my cerebral membrane today seemed to have retarded my intellect. ironic especially since i set out today with a new book by edward said in my bag, all ready to end the day so much the richer having consumed some reading material. unfortunately, i was faced with a constant barage of critical thinking, which in itself is faultless, but in my opinion, sadly inadequate without the accompaniment of lateral thinking. the western culture of dialectic, or the 'clash' system, will, in my mind, always be a hindrance rather than a help. for more on these views on thinking about thinking that i have gleaned off books from a rather young age, do try some simple reading of Prof Edward De Bono. Easily digestable and remarkably logical for a topic as abstract as thinking about thinking. i am naturally biased as an alumnus of de Bono's thinking school but nevertheless, the hols are coming up. you can always spare some time for a decent read.
10:14 PM
how can you find the pot of gold if you can't even see a rainbow? this malaise of negativity that's consuming me is nothing new. it just needs a cure.
7:41 PM
biting off more than i could chew. that pretty much sums up this year, which is coming to a choking end. pun not intended.
10:27 PM
exams are over, and in truth, the feeling of emptiness is slowly but surely creeping back into my life. if anything, the eoys were a much needed break where i could focus on something that i like doing, that i do well. i was really getting very sick of my life for the week or two prior to the exams. and now that they're over, i can honestly say, yesterday was good at best, probably much closer to average. got to know some new people, but you know, everything seems so sad. i need something to switch my frame of perception right now. little miss sunshine i suppose isn't too bad. but i wasn't quite in the mood for that kinda movie yesterday. anyway, i have one outing to look forward to this week. and work. and my novels.
8:04 AM